Awake.

I lay down...

yet my eyes do not close.

I know I'll regret this in the morning.

At nighttime... when the lights are out,

when the stars shout to each other a crossed the damp

sky...

when the people in my house are sleeping, dreaming,

wanting, and content....

when only the hum of my laptop is the only

sound near....

I count.

I count the calories I had for the day...

even if just 200,

I want it to be less.

The word STARVE pops

into my hungry head.

and I make plans for the next day.

what will I eat?

when and how will I get rid of it?

Should I fast?

.....

A play inside of my head of dramatic acts,

too many scenes, and no intermission. 

No, My brain won't sleep tonight.

When this body falls asleep

it will still be awake...

counting.

planning. 

Something I want....

will always be something

I hate.

Story of my life.

- Good night,

Glitch.